i'm in another Emo mood; happy post that i was mentally-writing in my head will not transalte to typed letters, so it shall be saved for another day, or another place (shit, Boey Kim Cheng much- pfft).
anyway, they seem to be coming more often now, and in fuller force than they used to. i can feel really strong and completely steady, goal in mind and ready to work for it; the next moment i'll be sunken and demoralised, wondering if Hope stole Confidence when it ran off.
i hate being in these Emo moods. haven't done GP; shall do it in the library tomorrow and hand it in to her to mark&meet her another time. debating between studying Lit or Econs, or both. shall decide tomorrow morning.
i guess the little things bug me the most cos the little things matter the most to me. it's the reason i'm happy and optimistic most of the time. but i suppose everything needs to be equalled out; can't be happy forever. or maybe i need to find joy in the littler things.
should take advice: find a softball bat&a tree to whack til the bark flies off. i'd rather shoot clay pigeons with a rifle to hear the clanging as the porcelain shatters and feel the recoil of the gun and feel some sense of satisfaction derived from destruction, but i don't think that's realistic (and is slightly scary, too, though rather cool if you think about it).
right. i think the best thing to do is take another piece of advice&sleep, hoping at least zen will return tomorrow.
LOVE,
12:29 AM