Love is not blind;
Love is acceptance, flaws&all.
LOVE,
10:34 PM
Monday, April 28, 2008
To wish is to hope, and hope is...elusive? Hope is uncertain, the ever-cliched (this, itself, is cliched) fickle friend.
"No, freak, I do not." (:
"Friends do not build walls between themselves." (haha!)
Too much serious thought scares me a little. Why is it when I think deeply, I always think of scary or sad things, or make happy thoughts sad? Because of practicality, too much practicality.
Kells says that deep thought arises out of sadness, &I guess that's true.
Take a Bow; Hollywood's Not America.
10:34 PM
"No, freak, I do not." (:
"Friends do not build walls between themselves." (haha!)
Too much serious thought scares me a little. Why is it when I think deeply, I always think of scary or sad things, or make happy thoughts sad? Because of practicality, too much practicality.
Kells says that deep thought arises out of sadness, &I guess that's true.
Take a Bow; Hollywood's Not America.
LOVE,
9:00 PM
Friday, April 25, 2008
Miss Sin&her some of her Band B APGP students(:
One of the few lessons that I enjoy going for, despite the current onslaught of ethical dilemma questions she's making us answer, which is making my brain severely tired.
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Random Thoughts:
1. Sometimes I love watching couples being all smiley&happy, laughing&talking animatedly&all- it's so sweet (though I have to admit, I do get slightly jealous- just slightly!).
2. What I find extremely sweet is when people remember the little things you say, things that you thought were just expressed cos they just happen to be passing through your head, but they remember. They remember, &they actually do something about it, which is really the ultimate in sweetness (&also shows that they were really listening, not nodding cos it's getting boring&you just want the tale to end already).
3. Neha said she finds it sad when people turn out to be something other than what you thought they were. I find it freaky, cos it raises all sorts of questions about pretty much everything.
4. Hamlet was good. Some of the lines were just hilarious, super funny! (((: I swear I was going to burst out laughing when he went "Oh, woe is me!". I settled for a snort (a very feminine one, okay!) instead, so I wouldn't disturb anyone else but for Kell&Neha, who were, in my defence, smirking too, so I was just joining in!
5. Not going to school, can't take the flu anymore, it's gotten to me, finally.
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Too tired for anymore random thoughts. I thought a lot more stuff when I was on the train home, but I'll save them for another time. Too many things happen in too short a time, &all the changes&shocks, while enlightening, are like injections into an economy such that it will need to stabilise at a new equilibrium level.
Rachel reverting to Econs-Speak
Is a clear indication that she needs sleep.
(Haha, half-rhyme in a couplet- what is it's significance?!)
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Okay, sorry for the madness, going off now, promise.
9:00 PM
Miss Sin&her some of her Band B APGP students(:
One of the few lessons that I enjoy going for, despite the current onslaught of ethical dilemma questions she's making us answer, which is making my brain severely tired.
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Random Thoughts:
1. Sometimes I love watching couples being all smiley&happy, laughing&talking animatedly&all- it's so sweet (though I have to admit, I do get slightly jealous- just slightly!).
2. What I find extremely sweet is when people remember the little things you say, things that you thought were just expressed cos they just happen to be passing through your head, but they remember. They remember, &they actually do something about it, which is really the ultimate in sweetness (&also shows that they were really listening, not nodding cos it's getting boring&you just want the tale to end already).
3. Neha said she finds it sad when people turn out to be something other than what you thought they were. I find it freaky, cos it raises all sorts of questions about pretty much everything.
4. Hamlet was good. Some of the lines were just hilarious, super funny! (((: I swear I was going to burst out laughing when he went "Oh, woe is me!". I settled for a snort (a very feminine one, okay!) instead, so I wouldn't disturb anyone else but for Kell&Neha, who were, in my defence, smirking too, so I was just joining in!
5. Not going to school, can't take the flu anymore, it's gotten to me, finally.
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Too tired for anymore random thoughts. I thought a lot more stuff when I was on the train home, but I'll save them for another time. Too many things happen in too short a time, &all the changes&shocks, while enlightening, are like injections into an economy such that it will need to stabilise at a new equilibrium level.
Rachel reverting to Econs-Speak
Is a clear indication that she needs sleep.
(Haha, half-rhyme in a couplet- what is it's significance?!)
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Okay, sorry for the madness, going off now, promise.
LOVE,
1:34 AM
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
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1:34 AM
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Another picture stolen from (Lim) Halim.
I was thinking whilst in the toilet today (yes, okay, weird place to have deep thoughts, but whatever), &I realised that I actually agreed with something K said. It was something about how she doesn't believe in mollycoddling (my mind instantly jumped to Harrry Potter, last instalment, where this word was used as a pun) us cos the world's not like that.
I don't really agree with the first part, nor about how she's going about un-mollycoddling us (ie. making us go crazy), but I do agree that we need toughening up. Everytime I tell my dad about school&how it's driving me insane, he basically tells me to suck it up. At first I thought he was being really mean about it, but I realise now that he isn't, cos it's true. If I had bothered to listen past "You have to deal with this, girl" and heard "you'll have to deal with things like this all your life, so it's better to learn now than when it's too late", I would have realised earlier that my dad was imparting wisdom, not being insenstive.
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I hate it when I'm unable to detach myself from things, because it's too close for me to be able to do so. It already irks me in the first place, then it's elevated by my inability to disallow it from irking me.
LOVE,
8:46 PM
Sunday, April 20, 2008
I like how I'm getting to know my classmates more.
(:
&I don't mean it in just that way (Mok calls it "The Thing"). I'm really finding out more about their personalities&histories (revelations, revelations)- some good, some...not-s0-good, but good to know anyway.
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Alrighto, let's try starting The White Moon Faces. Or ACJC Compre, which is more tempting cos I can type the answers.
Choices, choices.
8:46 PM
(:
&I don't mean it in just that way (Mok calls it "The Thing"). I'm really finding out more about their personalities&histories (revelations, revelations)- some good, some...not-s0-good, but good to know anyway.
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Alrighto, let's try starting The White Moon Faces. Or ACJC Compre, which is more tempting cos I can type the answers.
Choices, choices.
LOVE,
2:26 PM
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
2:26 PM
God Forbid
I should ever
_____.
LOVE,
11:33 PM
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Some of my favourite pictures taken on my birthday. (Yes, I'm still thinking about it. It was a wonderful day!)
11:33 PM
1. Best Candid Picture! (NeanderTong, plus Jaime's face in the background)
2. I, very nicely, made myself seem shorter.
3. Sonia!
4. "Anita! Come take the picture with us!" *Click!* (and a lonely bowl of wanton soup)
1. In utter shock but deliriously happy!
2. Mas sneaking up on me, about to attack me with cake. Asraf&Asyraf both standing there like nothing's happening- thanks uh!
3. Cutting my cake! (They made me save like around 2 slices, citing some retarded excuse, which I retardedly believed.)
4. Bestest Friend<3>
5. Mas&I, hiding away after launching another cake attack on some innocent person, I think.
6. JUMP! (Mas, myself, Shahida, Nonis)
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There is nothing I would like better than to be super cosy (preferably with a someone that I haven't found), watching TV whilst sharing a tub of ice cream (preferably Chunky Monkey, or some other flavour that I like).
For now, though, I will have to contend with sitting on the bed&attempting to do some work, whilst my ice cream is sitting in the fridge, waiting to be eaten.
Oh the joy.
LOVE,
8:39 PM
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Heartache is like the stone in your shoe. It bothers you, but it won't kill you.Maybe to you, it will. Maybe to you, heartache is a pebble, a rock, a needle, a pinhead, a knife, a thumbtack, but I think we can all agree that there is nothing more tiresome, more painful. My worst fear is to realise that I have been a waste of time. My consequence is independence. What is yours?
-Danielle Han
Took that from Danielle's blog. Read something in Sophie's blog too, though I don't remember exactly what she said. Left me with quite a bit of stuff to think about.
Oh, I was so shocked at who my parents thought I had something going on with. What shocked me even more was their reaction, or lack thereof, to it. I thought they would freak out, especially my mum, but they were so calm about it. Dad asked me about it just now, so subtely that I didn't even notice (or maybe it's because I'm totally blur when it comes to these kinds of things). Strangely, they weren't against it. Dad even said that I was handling it well. -.-
Parents are indecipherable.
On another note, Mas, Asraf, Asyraf&Shahida, we need to go for pizza. Maybe when I get my new place or something, I'll invite you guys over&the pizza will be on me (or rather, on my Dad, who has already offered to sponsor it). It's a measure of how much they did for me, if even my Dad was touched when he wasn't even there.
<3!
8:39 PM
-Danielle Han
Took that from Danielle's blog. Read something in Sophie's blog too, though I don't remember exactly what she said. Left me with quite a bit of stuff to think about.
Oh, I was so shocked at who my parents thought I had something going on with. What shocked me even more was their reaction, or lack thereof, to it. I thought they would freak out, especially my mum, but they were so calm about it. Dad asked me about it just now, so subtely that I didn't even notice (or maybe it's because I'm totally blur when it comes to these kinds of things). Strangely, they weren't against it. Dad even said that I was handling it well. -.-
Parents are indecipherable.
On another note, Mas, Asraf, Asyraf&Shahida, we need to go for pizza. Maybe when I get my new place or something, I'll invite you guys over&the pizza will be on me (or rather, on my Dad, who has already offered to sponsor it). It's a measure of how much they did for me, if even my Dad was touched when he wasn't even there.
<3!
LOVE,
11:22 PM
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Dumbstruck&don't really know how to describe today. From beginning to end, it was like...wonderful. I'm totally, absolutely, seriously blessed with the best friends&family around me. I Love Love Love you all so much.
Ahhh, when I find a way to do justice to today, I will post an entry about it. Til then...
(Haven't uploaded pictures from my camera yet. Need to do the history essay first.)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
indeed.
11:22 PM
Dumbstruck&don't really know how to describe today. From beginning to end, it was like...wonderful. I'm totally, absolutely, seriously blessed with the best friends&family around me. I Love Love Love you all so much.
Ahhh, when I find a way to do justice to today, I will post an entry about it. Til then...
(Haven't uploaded pictures from my camera yet. Need to do the history essay first.)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
indeed.
LOVE,
10:05 PM
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Twas' the night before...
(:
10:05 PM
(:
LOVE,
8:24 PM
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Hello.
Today's post shall be filled with my random thoughts.
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Today was a normal day. Nothing much really happened. Lit in the morning, break (did some work), math (stoned my ass off&froze slightly too), break (this time had to do Lit), GP (super interesting&quite disturbing), break (toilet), Lit Test (hahaha, let's not talk about it).
Stayed back after school cos I was trapped by the rain. A little bit of studying&a whole lot of madness with some of the A6 bunch (who are friggin fun!).
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I want a Carl's Jr. burger, the one without veg that tastes friggin good. Plus the fries, with bolognaise sauce I think. B&J's Chunky Monkey's good too!
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One of my post-A Level goals is to make a big board with all the pictures of the good ol' days, so that whenever I'm sad, I can go to the board, pick a picture, reminisce about the story behind the picture, &feel much much happier.
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Chris Brown is hawwwwt! I think (almost) anyone that can dance/sing automatically gets 100 Hot Points.
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I need new pictures! Thursday shall be Take-Picture-Day! &nobody can say no to me on that day (((:
8:24 PM
Today's post shall be filled with my random thoughts.
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Today was a normal day. Nothing much really happened. Lit in the morning, break (did some work), math (stoned my ass off&froze slightly too), break (this time had to do Lit), GP (super interesting&quite disturbing), break (toilet), Lit Test (hahaha, let's not talk about it).
Stayed back after school cos I was trapped by the rain. A little bit of studying&a whole lot of madness with some of the A6 bunch (who are friggin fun!).
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I want a Carl's Jr. burger, the one without veg that tastes friggin good. Plus the fries, with bolognaise sauce I think. B&J's Chunky Monkey's good too!
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One of my post-A Level goals is to make a big board with all the pictures of the good ol' days, so that whenever I'm sad, I can go to the board, pick a picture, reminisce about the story behind the picture, &feel much much happier.
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Chris Brown is hawwwwt! I think (almost) anyone that can dance/sing automatically gets 100 Hot Points.
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I need new pictures! Thursday shall be Take-Picture-Day! &nobody can say no to me on that day (((:
LOVE,
8:35 PM
Sunday, April 06, 2008
Read Tuala's (ie. Mastura's) blog! (:
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I'm thankful for all the friends that I have, because in their own unique ways, they keep me going. I can't imagine my life without them; I seriously think I would be in like semi-depression if I didn't have all the friends that I do.
The ones that grew up with me in Secondary school remind me of who I am&keep me sane because of their insanity. The ones from JC help to develop my mind&expose me to a different kind of world than the one I'm used to. The online ones are great because they could just block me or decide to not care when I talk about personal stuff, but they care.
There is a sense of comfort&security&warmth in knowing that there are people out there who are always there for me, &will never judge me because they know me so well.
(:
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I was listening to Tuala talk about her love life, &telling her about mine, we realised that they're really screwed up- hers is over-populated whilst mine is semi-non-existent. I love how we always understand how the other feels, how we can finish each other's sentences&share every single detail of our lives. (Gah, we sound like we have something going on. Haha!)
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I love my friends, &I never want them to forget that.
<3
8:35 PM
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I'm thankful for all the friends that I have, because in their own unique ways, they keep me going. I can't imagine my life without them; I seriously think I would be in like semi-depression if I didn't have all the friends that I do.
The ones that grew up with me in Secondary school remind me of who I am&keep me sane because of their insanity. The ones from JC help to develop my mind&expose me to a different kind of world than the one I'm used to. The online ones are great because they could just block me or decide to not care when I talk about personal stuff, but they care.
There is a sense of comfort&security&warmth in knowing that there are people out there who are always there for me, &will never judge me because they know me so well.
(:
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I was listening to Tuala talk about her love life, &telling her about mine, we realised that they're really screwed up- hers is over-populated whilst mine is semi-non-existent. I love how we always understand how the other feels, how we can finish each other's sentences&share every single detail of our lives. (Gah, we sound like we have something going on. Haha!)
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I love my friends, &I never want them to forget that.
<3
LOVE,
6:22 PM
Saturday, April 05, 2008
Nic's 17th, last year.
6:22 PM
Nic's 17th, last year.
Today Nic bought:
- Earphones
- NUM Slippers
- Everlast singlet
- 3 shirts from Cotton On
- Box File from Harris
- FBT singlet&shorts
Today I bought:
- 2 shirts from Cotton On
There was a last-minute scramble to get the shirts from Cotton On, totally hilarious! Nic, as usual, got slightly injured. &I owe him about $5 for the drink (that didn't even taste alcoholic) which I drank most of cos it tasted like slightly like Orangina, but nicer. &also for the shirts from Cotton On, which came up to $20. Oh&Nic managed to run into, literally, two women whilst we were running in the rain from Heeren to Cathay Cine.
You realllly don't want to know how much Nic spent. He doesn't even want to know how much he spent. Bet it's an indecent sum.
OH! I saw Derek outside Cine!
LOVE,
11:38 PM
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Bad Day.
Woke up late this morning, rushed around the house&had to help my brother fold his blanket&stuff cos he forgot to&if I didn't do it then Dad would have to, which I didn't want. Got out of the house, switched on the iPod&stuffed earpieces into my ears. iPod kept playing sad songs. Sad song after sad song.
Bad Omen.
I'm so retarded, can't believe I believe in stuff like that. It's not like it's Karma (which I totally believe), it's like stupid signs from an iPod. Shit, I judge how good my day will be by the songs that my iPod plays, which is totally random. This proves that I have lost whatever few marbles that were left in my head.
Anyway, to my class, I'm realllllly sorry that she kept everyone back cos I got caught for my skirt. I feel really bad about it.
Now I have to meet her at 7.20 in the mornings. FOS. She sees me during morning assembly anyway what, what's her problem man.
11:38 PM
Woke up late this morning, rushed around the house&had to help my brother fold his blanket&stuff cos he forgot to&if I didn't do it then Dad would have to, which I didn't want. Got out of the house, switched on the iPod&stuffed earpieces into my ears. iPod kept playing sad songs. Sad song after sad song.
Bad Omen.
I'm so retarded, can't believe I believe in stuff like that. It's not like it's Karma (which I totally believe), it's like stupid signs from an iPod. Shit, I judge how good my day will be by the songs that my iPod plays, which is totally random. This proves that I have lost whatever few marbles that were left in my head.
Anyway, to my class, I'm realllllly sorry that she kept everyone back cos I got caught for my skirt. I feel really bad about it.
Now I have to meet her at 7.20 in the mornings. FOS. She sees me during morning assembly anyway what, what's her problem man.
LOVE,
8:32 PM
8:32 PM