The K said today, as she has said many times before, "I live in hope".
Don't we all, every day of our lives? Hope against hope that the next minute, hour, day, will be better than or as good as the one now. For what is there to live for if we don't hope?
Newton's First Law of Motion states that a physical body will remain at rest, or continue to move at a constant speed, unless a force works on it.
I wonder, sometimes, if this applies to life too. This seems very GP-ish, but it's true right? As in, if there is nothing to propel or even nudge us forward, then we'd all still be cavemen.
(What's that word K asked Roy to find out the meaning of today? I vaguely remember it being a three-syllable word, ending with "magnum".)
K gave us 2 cakes yesterday, along with sweets and chocolates, because she believes in "credit where credit is due", &we did a good job for our Service Learning. This, along with what Mrs. Ram said in class, left much to ponder about as well.
&school is still sucking my blood, in more ways than two (the two being K&work).
LOVE,
8:21 PM
Monday, February 25, 2008
Service Learning on Saturday was totally, totally, totally worth every bit of effort we put in. It's so gratifying, that that little bit of work we put in could have such a big effect in someone else's life.
The experience was already so indescribable. The email that came today was like the cherry on top of the icing. It just totally made my night way happier. (((:
I want to go back there some time.
I'm thankful for this experience, I really am.
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Watched Jumper with Nic, Zach&Joash after SL. That was really fun, meeting up with them was a welcome relief, especially since they're so nuts, kinda like me! All the catching up, the funny comments during the movie, Nic's total himboness, sitting by the Fountain of Wealth eating our Subway Sandwiches(((:
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In the end, it all comes down to the little things,
the little things <3!
8:21 PM
The experience was already so indescribable. The email that came today was like the cherry on top of the icing. It just totally made my night way happier. (((:
I want to go back there some time.
I'm thankful for this experience, I really am.
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Watched Jumper with Nic, Zach&Joash after SL. That was really fun, meeting up with them was a welcome relief, especially since they're so nuts, kinda like me! All the catching up, the funny comments during the movie, Nic's total himboness, sitting by the Fountain of Wealth eating our Subway Sandwiches(((:
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In the end, it all comes down to the little things,
the little things <3!
LOVE,
11:18 PM
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Can't believe you're already 20! Time's passing really quickly by- I've known you since you were in your mid-teens, now your age has the number 2 as the first digit. Anyway, Hanis, I'll cook something for you some time k? Can't promise when, but I will! &you better not forget my birthday ok, I will whack you so hard...
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Today, I was thinking of all the countries I want to go to&the people I want to go to those places with. I couldn't make up my mind about the latter, but regarding the former, I have a pretty good idea of which countries are the top in my list. In no order of preference-
1. Bali
2. Dubai
3. Egypt
4. India
5. Rome
6. UK
7. Japan
8. US
Backpack with close friends, holiday with the family, shopping/relaxation trips with the best girlfriends (&maybe with boyfriends too?), honeymoon with prospective husband, part of my education in Uni or sent abroad cos of work...
If only I could live jumping from one cloud to another, living in my dreams. But I know that reality will burst my bubble, the way it's wont to do, so I go on flights of fancy, but always return with my feet planted on the ground.
I guess Humans were never meant to fly
for a reason.
11:18 PM
To Muhammad Hanis,
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY
Here's to the old days,
remember them? (:
Can't believe you're already 20! Time's passing really quickly by- I've known you since you were in your mid-teens, now your age has the number 2 as the first digit. Anyway, Hanis, I'll cook something for you some time k? Can't promise when, but I will! &you better not forget my birthday ok, I will whack you so hard...
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Today, I was thinking of all the countries I want to go to&the people I want to go to those places with. I couldn't make up my mind about the latter, but regarding the former, I have a pretty good idea of which countries are the top in my list. In no order of preference-
1. Bali
2. Dubai
3. Egypt
4. India
5. Rome
6. UK
7. Japan
8. US
Backpack with close friends, holiday with the family, shopping/relaxation trips with the best girlfriends (&maybe with boyfriends too?), honeymoon with prospective husband, part of my education in Uni or sent abroad cos of work...
If only I could live jumping from one cloud to another, living in my dreams. But I know that reality will burst my bubble, the way it's wont to do, so I go on flights of fancy, but always return with my feet planted on the ground.
I guess Humans were never meant to fly
for a reason.
LOVE,
8:36 PM
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Or is it Hope&Fate's fault? Fate's fault for setting us up, making us anticipate, building up that eagerness, that anxiety that you hate but makes you grin anyway, Fate's fault for pulling the rug from right under our feet.
Whatever it is, it comes down to the individual in the end, doesn't it?
This is why I want to fly-
It's liberating, it's the physical act of leaving everything behind, being above it all. It's the feeling of complete abandon, of doing whatever you want without giving a care- not one, not a single one. Then you break through the man-made boundaries that would otherwise keep you locked inside this tiny plot of land, going from one distant faraway place to another, enjoying it from a view like no other.
It wouldn't be perfect, because nothing is. But it would be so refreshing, so insightful, so liberating.
So don't scoff at me when I say I want to fly- I know it sounds funny&absolutely retarded, but.
8:36 PM
Happiness is a fickle friend- it comes&goes as it pleases, giving you pleasure for the duration of it's stay- which is up to it's fancy-, but leaving you feeling empty with nothing but the ghost of laughter past&the residual smile that slowly fades.
Or is it Hope&Fate's fault? Fate's fault for setting us up, making us anticipate, building up that eagerness, that anxiety that you hate but makes you grin anyway, Fate's fault for pulling the rug from right under our feet.
Whatever it is, it comes down to the individual in the end, doesn't it?
This is why I want to fly-
It's liberating, it's the physical act of leaving everything behind, being above it all. It's the feeling of complete abandon, of doing whatever you want without giving a care- not one, not a single one. Then you break through the man-made boundaries that would otherwise keep you locked inside this tiny plot of land, going from one distant faraway place to another, enjoying it from a view like no other.
It wouldn't be perfect, because nothing is. But it would be so refreshing, so insightful, so liberating.
So don't scoff at me when I say I want to fly- I know it sounds funny&absolutely retarded, but.
LOVE,
10:36 PM
10:36 PM
Don't undermine my insecurities,
I have the right to have them.
Don't mistake "undermine" with "nonchalance",
I'd like to think that people care.
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School is as school has always been, so let's just not go into that, ok? Studying with Lav has been quite productive though, we're getting better at not getting distracted. Bottomline is, though, I study more with her in school then I do at home by myself.
Plus, it's nice to catch up with people you haven't talked to in a while(:
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Could it be that I'm actually looking forward to school tomorrow? How odd. Somehow, I don't think it's school per se that I'm awaiting, but let's not go into that either.
What do we have tomorrow though? K's Lit, GP, Econs...don't remember what else we have. Oh right, tomorrow's the day we have a half hour break to sustain us for the entire day. First&last period- K.
By now you should wonder what in the world I'm looking forward to.
Clue: I live for the little joys in life. (Not that I disregard the "big joys in life", it's just that there aren't that many left nowadays)
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Pride&Prejudice is sitting on my table, waiting for me to pry it open&do the "preparation" for tomorrow's lesson- waiting while I stall.
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Today's Phrase of the Day:
Reach for the shoe!
Yesterday's Phrase of the Day:
Sell house, get banana.
Catchy, no?
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Random thoughts,
LOVE,
9:13 PM
Friday, February 15, 2008
Valentine's Day
Flashback.
9:13 PM
Flashback.
This year's was really nice&all as well. I decided to enjoy every happy moment, just immerse myself in it. So long as I don't compare it with last year's, it really was quite fun. As in there was all the singing&present-giving&loads of hugging too! (:
But there were no fish, no pink 'I Love You' balloons, no ice cream with aloe vera&banana, no scribblings on our arms, no appreciative smiles from middle-aged women in the train, no FB, no OG2.
Still Happy Though!
Just different.
LOVE,
12:17 AM
Monday, February 11, 2008
12:17 AM
OG2 Dinner
@VIVO!
Attendance:
Verine Krist FengYun Rachel Joash Nic Yanqi BigBen Dickson
Meeting up with them after such a long time was awkward at first, but after that initial tension, it was fun. Went to Kim Gary's HK Restaurant (or something like that)&had to wait for quite a while before getting seats. I was damn hungry. Anyway, Nic ordered some retarded thing called Egg in Boiling Milk.
Recipe for Disaster. Only Nic would buy something that sounds so extremely retarded&potentially stomach-ache-inducing.
End of Dinner.
(One, Two, Swee)
The Girls!
Fruit Basket<3
please look at that weird red bag. It belongs to Nic. I know- surprise, surprise right?
FB!(:
we look good, I like these two pictures!
Group Shot!
After this shot, we went to a few shops that were as-yet still open, but it didn't last long since it was already about 10pm. So we soon went back home, but Nic stayed on to shop for an earpiece for himself.
Oh&Dickson kept disturbing us about how we all had to go home early cos we had to go to school the next day, unlike him(cos he has a 2 month break). He's like some movie critic man, he's watched all the good shows. Pfffffft (this is my sound of disdain).
I still <3>
LOVE,
9:30 PM
Sunday, February 10, 2008
I still think Backstreet Boys' Shape of My Heart is a sweet song.
Don't you just miss the 9o's boyband era? Everyone knew (&still know) all the lyrics of all the songs, all the names of the various boybands, everyone had their favorites, everyone sang the songs spontaneously, sometimes without even understanding what in the world the lyrics meant.
Those were the days,
they were the days.
9:30 PM
Don't you just miss the 9o's boyband era? Everyone knew (&still know) all the lyrics of all the songs, all the names of the various boybands, everyone had their favorites, everyone sang the songs spontaneously, sometimes without even understanding what in the world the lyrics meant.
Those were the days,
they were the days.
LOVE,
3:20 PM
Friday, February 08, 2008
Hello Tuala!
I know things are tough for you now, &I can totally relate. Some people would scoff at the things that upset us, but rest assured, I will never be one of those people. You're right, it's scary how alike our lives are in some aspects, so much so that we can truly say we understand what the other's going through. In that respect, we're lucky, cos how many people can say that?
On a lighter note-
Siaotingtongkelongpongpong!
Everyone's going to think I'm mad, but you&I know the memories this ridiculous word we came up with brings. Smile babe, &think of this word everytime you're sad. Oh yah, &kebong. Woah, that was hilarious man!
Love you, you nutcase of a bestfriend(:
(picture Asraf cringing- instant happiness!)
3:20 PM
For My Bestfriend,
With Love (:
Hello Tuala!
I know things are tough for you now, &I can totally relate. Some people would scoff at the things that upset us, but rest assured, I will never be one of those people. You're right, it's scary how alike our lives are in some aspects, so much so that we can truly say we understand what the other's going through. In that respect, we're lucky, cos how many people can say that?
On a lighter note-
Siaotingtongkelongpongpong!
Everyone's going to think I'm mad, but you&I know the memories this ridiculous word we came up with brings. Smile babe, &think of this word everytime you're sad. Oh yah, &kebong. Woah, that was hilarious man!
Love you, you nutcase of a bestfriend(:
(picture Asraf cringing- instant happiness!)
LOVE,
10:19 PM
Thursday, February 07, 2008
10:19 PM
Count My Lucky Stars(:
lastly, to my dearest bestfriend, rachel hui min de silvaaaaa.
i know you're going through a hard time now but as i've said before, you'll always and i mean ALWAYS have me here. i'm only 3 mrt stations away and one call away. i understand what you're going through and you understand what i am going through. its amazing how i don't even have to tell you what's happening and you'll already know it. thats the reason why, out of everyone in this world, YOU are my bestfriend.and i specially dedicate this song to you. (and me too! )
LOVE,
10:35 PM
10:35 PM
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! (:
My battery ran flat before we went to the other house, so I couldn't take more pictures. Anyway, this is the Chinese side of the family (duh)&the little ones are my cousin's kids! They're really cute, very cheeky!
&of cos, pictures of myself. I took more than just two though, but i don't think anyone wants to see them but for me.
LOVE,
6:57 PM
Monday, February 04, 2008
6:57 PM
Self-Indulgence gives me just a little bit
of Self-Confidence, Self-Assurance.
LOVE,
7:33 PM
As much as I hate to admit it, what Neha&Kells said today was totally true- I say I want to give up, but deep (or not so deep) inside me, I don't really try cos I don't really want to give up. Epiphany.
Today, but for the KFC makan with friends, sucked ass. After hearing what Zahra told me today during one of the breaks, &especially after the whole epiphany before Yoong's lesson, I'm done. Since Neha&Kells have now started their Operation If-Rachel-Says-The-Word-"Person"-We-Will-Whack-Her-Half-To-Death, I suppose I will really be going cold turkey this time. It's just not worth it, Not Worth It. I've said this before, wonder if anyone will actually believe in me.
I suppose that's what friends are for.
I suck at these things, I really do. I don't get why I hope for things when I know they won't happen, then I just end up getting myself upset. &I never seem to learn, which sucks all the more.
I used to just get angry whenever I felt angry, now I just keep it all inside until I can't take it anymore&I get these rather aggressive urges- it scares even me sometimes. From one end of the spectrum to the other- it can't possibly be good.
These are the days where I feel like absolute fuck- they're coming with greater frequency.
7:33 PM
Today, but for the KFC makan with friends, sucked ass. After hearing what Zahra told me today during one of the breaks, &especially after the whole epiphany before Yoong's lesson, I'm done. Since Neha&Kells have now started their Operation If-Rachel-Says-The-Word-"Person"-We-Will-Whack-Her-Half-To-Death, I suppose I will really be going cold turkey this time. It's just not worth it, Not Worth It. I've said this before, wonder if anyone will actually believe in me.
I suppose that's what friends are for.
I suck at these things, I really do. I don't get why I hope for things when I know they won't happen, then I just end up getting myself upset. &I never seem to learn, which sucks all the more.
I used to just get angry whenever I felt angry, now I just keep it all inside until I can't take it anymore&I get these rather aggressive urges- it scares even me sometimes. From one end of the spectrum to the other- it can't possibly be good.
These are the days where I feel like absolute fuck- they're coming with greater frequency.
LOVE,
7:09 PM
Sunday, February 03, 2008
7:09 PM
02022022,
we will meet again at the same place(:
LOVE,
3:13 PM
3:13 PM