RACHEL DE SILVA

ocassionally, i love my curls.

hello everyone!

i just realised that we have a long weekend off next week-

8th is Half-Day, 9th is National Day, 10th is School Holiday, 11th&12th are the weekends!

8th is supposedly day out with either OG or
a bunch of people. i don't know who yet, seeing as how Zach&Nic are both
being nuts so i can't get an answer out of them.

9th is probably family day. unless someone decides to
ask me out to go watch the fireworks. i'm hoping that someone will talk
to me by then, but it doesn't seem likely. so like i guess anyone who wants to
go watch can ask me!

10th, i'm trying to get my two besties out of the house, but i
don't know if they can make it. if not, maybe can get Kells&Neha to go to
the Zoo!

i have this ominous feeling that this will turn out like my whole kids kampong, zoo&sentosa idea.

forgive the urgency,

but hurry up&wait

my heart has started to separate.

LOVE,

6:05 PM

oh-seven-aye-one-oh

i am growing to love my class. i think it's because my classmates are a really diverse bunch, but click cos we're all quirky in our own way.

PE is always fun- i will get abs from laughing so hard at all their antics.

Project Work is just nuts cos Ms Zhou cannot keep a straight face when she tries to scold us, she always smiles. &we make strange/no-link comments that make the whole class crack up.

"Zongze, what is the difference between the WR and
EOM?"
"It is basically the same thing."
"But...?"
"It is twice as long."

really can die laughing as a result of lack of oxygen intake.

&remember the episode where everyone came to help Roy&Cheryl after the cockroach made them write 10essays each, to be handed in the next morning.

i am falling in love with my class, yay! (:

for pictures of us on College Day's Amazing Race:
http://lovebeingloud.blogspot.com/2007/07/hello-was-college-day-today-which-meant.html

LOVE,

11:32 PM

TAGS REPLIED!

rachelw.
hello! &you're welcome!

asyraf.
you may come ask me for an autograph! haha!

Mastura.
my dear, i have already gone bonkers. &you me dee must go out sometime soon k. how many times have i said this already!

jamie.
you aren't a dinosaur, you just look like one.

asiq.
haha your loss you future-57-year-old man-with-moobs.

NEHA.
hello gautam, you don't look fat, period. so you must take more pictures with me! &i so hope it would, but what are the chances? ):

dee.
DINAHFARADINAH reply my very very long message! &i miss you too, got so much to tell you, as always.

LOVE,

2:13 PM

hello!

these are my photos! oh what joy, i love love photos.

1. Kells with Neha's clip perched atop her head, like a big fat white fly.

2. Jo doing something, Vic with a strange pose, &sorry Jaime but you look buck-toothed.

3. Keedo! after facilitating Water Polo for Learning Festival.

4. Ms Kellynn Wee, who looked gorgeous on Rapture day.

5. Neha decided to pout when my camera finally decided to stop hanging on me.

6. She loves her new phone, with a passion. &insists that i look like i'm smelling her head.

these are just some of the people that get me through the day(:

LOVE,

10:28 PM

&i wish upon a star
make it come true, pretty please?

yeah, wish wasn't fulfilled. duh. but it's ok, i can deal with it(:

shagged in school, no energy.
turns out we had no time to present our Lit work- waste of time staying up yesterday.
Econs lecture was another waste of time, seeing as how i didn't bring my notes.
Break was hella good, finally got some food into the system.
Project Work was, as usual, funny- what with my dear classmates being all really nutty&mad&absolutely hilarious.
Econs tutorial was a lot of copying&a certain amount of comprehension. but i started thinking too much, which caused some major traffic jam in my brain.
Maths? what Maths?
Neha&i slept in the Cafe, the cold draughts of wind making my hair stand. we were so tired that we really knocked out cold, even started dreaming during a 15minute sleep.

was petrified at the sight of the size of the board that we had to fill for the Lit Trip Project. but i have faith in my group, we'll pull something together(:

i found my Nokia USB Cable! Joy Peace Love and Happiness! it was in my dad's bag, no idea how it got there.

LOVE,

9:49 PM

hello.

long overdue photos, courtesy of Neha's new camera(which made my eyes look small in every single shot) from Rapture.

everyone was busy looking all pretty&glam, while i was busy looking like i have no eyes. when i finally find the stupid USB cable for my handphone, i will upload photos where my eyes can actually be seen.

but for now, contend with this.

oh yes, i realise there is a picture of Kells&i in school, so that's the only one not taken during Rapture.

good night.

i need sleep,

or i'll die.

which actually isn't such a bad thing.

LOVE,

12:48 AM

hello.
i can only hope that tomorrow will be better than today and yesterday. let something good, really good, happen to me tomorrow.

i'm nuts, wishing for something that won't happen.

LOVE,

12:40 AM

hello all(:

i passed Literature! how cool is that? &it's like just nice, right on the dot- 50marks. yay!

anyway, school today was useless for studying, but a fun day for hanging out with my class(: lots of them were away at the Leaders' Retreat or something, so there were like half of us left.

Lit lecture in the morning was the usual.
Break was fun! what with the class hanging out&being nuts&all.
Chinese was slack, &we all just made feeble attempts to complete our workbook, but ended up sleeping.
were too lazy to leave the class, so stayed there til break ended, then went for Econs.
Econs was alright i suppose. understood everything up til the last two pages, then i got lost.

after school, met up with Jamie the dinosaur from the Land Before Time, then did what we could to prepare for the GP presentation. we were surprisingly productive, &the work was of relatively good quality!

then went in the direction of home, but decided to drop by at Heartland Mall to see the changes, &also to grab a curry puff cos i was hungry. Schazwan happened to be there, so met up. First Time! wow.

i almost died laughing.

-

life is finally starting to settle down.
well, that is until my parents find out my results. but i'll worry about that when it happens. now, i would just like to enjoy the moment(:

LOVE,

9:10 PM

I WAS ON TV!

OMG COOLNESS.

remember i wrote about being interviewed&being late for my movie last Saturday? they finally aired the adverts! ok so there are other people in the ads too, but how cool! i look sooo dark lah, like i was standing in the sun for 24hours or something. oh man this is such coolness to be on tv for the first time. i was talking like a bullet train, i swear. my mum was like "what were you saying?". but shit, so cool right?

LOVE,

9:39 PM

HELLO LOVES!

friday the thirteenth

love, joy, peace&happiness

school was boring, &i crapped up something for the A&C assignment.

but that's not the point.

just look at the beautiful sunrise i caught this morning as i walked out to school. since i was on time, i decided to stop awhile to snap a shot. happy!

then went for the School Councillors Commendation, not cos i wanted to, but cos of my friends in Council! i have fulfilled my moral obligations&i feel no guilt. Rachelw. was so cute with her hair all pinned up, so very jap! &she, in her whole professional-looking suit, still did the whole "wassssup+hand signal" thing when commendation was over.

Yay SAJC 30th School Council!

was supposed to shop with Neha after commendation, but ended up walking around&catching the fifth instalment of Harry Potter! yes we have already watched Harry Potter, &we're going to watch it again.

it was rather funny cos the whole cinema was filled with juveniles(as Neha so termed us). so everyone was really, well, vocal? for lack of a better word. &you would think it would be annoying, but it's actually really funny!

"he's back!" haha! damn hilarious.

&on the way home, i saw Singapore's answer for Wentworth Miller. i swear he was so hot, especially in the army uniform. too bad i didn't notice him earlier, cos i had to get off at the next stop. but he did look over at me, probably thinking i'm nuts or something, but whatever!(:

&no Neha, he was not a Mat! so there is hope for me yet! (haha Neha will understand this)

LOVE,

9:07 PM

hello reality,
i see you've returned to burst my bubble again.
-
GP Compre half done, left with summary&AQ questions. time to start on our GP Project. this time it's on the era of Enlightenment. seems much more interesting&understandable then the topics we've had in the past, thank goodness.
it's going to be seminar style, i hope they'll respond.

right, let's suck it up&start doing work! (don't be deceived by the exclamation mark, i don't really have that much vigour left in me)

i'm so thankful for great friends. without them, i would have been packed off to the loony bin.

LOVE,

9:08 PM

today was fulfilling but tiring.
ok fine, that was referring only to TouchRugby, but whatever.
run, run, run more, plus a couple of other exercises.

i vaguely remember the rest of the day. oh yah, there was history lecture (boring), maths lecture test (will flunk for sure, again), GP lesson (Shi Da's obsession with Global Warming).
no chinese today, yay.

need to do EOM, damn it.

listening to music doesn't seem to help. in fact, i think it's making me sleepier.

i wish i could sing or dance or whatever- i wish i had a talent. being in a class of talented people has made me realise just how talentless (doubt this is a word) i am.

wow, so many random thoughts. i'm so obviously trying to not start doing EOM, which is dumb, cos i have to do it eventually.
duh. hello Rachel, wake up&take in a deep breath of reality already.

LOVE,

9:15 PM

hello.

today was ok, not too bad. i actually managed to get a B for chinese. this, if you ask me, is a miracle.
then International History happened&everything went bad. screwed up the paper&got 7/25, which gives me a combined grade of 40%, which equates to an S grade, which also means i'm screwed.

oh! Nic came down to SA today! &he had a rather shitty day too. maybe this day is cursed or something.

Zach&i went to the pathway at the main gate&when we saw him in his TJ jersey, we burst into laughter. i'm sorry, but canary yellow, pastel green&white just do not make for a good-looking jersey.

he managed to get into SA, so went to the Cafe&we(Zach, Nic, Verine&i) sat&talked for awhile. Zach had to go really soon, so we all went up to the Gallery, where there were a huge bunch of girls. &the bright yellow against our navy blue&white was bound to stand out. haha!

took some photos before Zach&amp;amp;Nic went off. Verine went for her councillor meeting&i went back down to the cafe, only to leave like 3minutes later.

today sucked. but i'm happy for great friends, cos they make things so much more bearable. enjoyable, even.

love you guys!(:

imagine me giving you all a big hug!

aww...

i know i don't go around telling everyone how important they are in my life,

but you guys really really mean a lot to me.

LOVE,

6:40 PM

HELLO ALL!!!

(((:

today's a happy day! started off bad, cos i had to cancel plans with my Sec School darlings. so asked Nic if he wanted to go down for a movie, so we did. after crossing roads that we didn't need to, we reached Cathay Cineleisure. &the whole nEbO thing was going on outside.

so anyway, shopped at Hereen to get Nic's CD, then walked down to Plaza Singapura. my navigation skills are getting better, unlike Nic, despite what he may claim. so anyway, Plaza Singapura was very,very fun indeed!

there was this competition where we could write messages about wanting to save the Earth&all, &the winner would get a handphone! at first we didn't know it was a competition, but while we were admiring our artwork, this man came&made us talk into the mic which was blaring outside PS.

but once we realised that we could win phones, we went up to Daiso to get a green pen&green stickers. then we started decorating the cards like absolute nutters. so we joined the two cards so as to make it more noticeable.

look at the outcome! not bad what. hope we get the phones! &of course, i love the Earth!

ok like that wasn't interesting enough, just as we were heading to the MRT to get to Cathay to watch the movie, we were stopped by these guys who wanted to interview us cos we were obviously wearing green&were busy trying to decorate those cards.

so, looking like absolute nonsense cos i didn't bother dressing up&all, we were interviewed. then there was this part where they wanted to get individual shots of us in green. i think i looked dumb cos the guy said i should either do the thumbs up thing or wink into the camera, so i chose the lesser of two stupid actions&did the thumbs up thing.

Nic looked so much better cos he was asked to act cool, not dumb, like me.

i wasn't wearing my sweater then, of course, seeing as how it would be way too hot. but you would understand why they stopped us, since we're green.

the movie, My Gangster Wife or something like that, was damn funny! i thought it would be bloody, but it was more funny than anything else. kept laughing. oh&we were about 15minutes late for the movie? there were people later than us, haha!

he had to rush off after, &i walked really fast to the MRT cos i was kinda hungry&wanted to get home for dinner quickly.

GAH

so much for the news! oh damn what in hell are they really using the footage for?

LOVE,

8:57 PM

hello(:

was College Day today, which meant loads of people didn't come to school cos there's nothing to do. except for the Amazing Race, which is compulsory, but who listens?

i actually wanted to leave school, but i was glad that i didn't in the end. it was fun to go walking around the place with my classmates, doing dumb things like running/jumping around the track with a balloon between our knees.

alsohad to take photos for the Scavenger Hunt, so i got the pictures from Debbie, who was our photographer. took pictures of

us with a House Councillor(Jaime!)
us with a boy who looks like Shia LeBeouf (haha, yah right)
us with someone in a school uniform(not from the Saints schools)
us on the spiderweb thing.

so after the whole thing ended, &we didn't actually finish the race, we went back to the Gallery again. so i decided to take photos with Neha(who didn't like the picture so i decided to be nice&not post it), Amanda, Nadrah, YeuKeed, Debbie&Shauna.

classmates!(:

please excuse the horribly messy hair. i woke up late today&so i was pretty much in a frenzy. left the house with my hair dripping wet, frantically trying to use a towel to dry it while walking really fast...basically, i was a mess.

TRANSFORMERS ROCKS!

i finally watched it today. it was bloody awesome.

enough said.

LOVE,

8:58 PM

HELLO PEOPLE!

i am still smiling/laughing to myself. i know i'm nuts, but HAHA!

was on the way home after A Level Chinese Oral(will not discuss this). saw Keed&Jerrald in the Tau Hway Shop, so stopped to talk to them for awhile. then went to the MRT station&saw priyathanaa. boarded the train&all, then suddenly came an sms-

"Yo. Are u on de train dat juz left ppasir?"

a few messages later, it turned out that the huge guy in blue with the big bag, standing in the middle of the carriage, was Schazwan!
ok this is the part where you are supposed to laugh. we've been talking since like lower sec? but haven't met him ever- not once. oh, except for the time outside SAS. but that was from far, far away, so it doesn't count.

it's quite embarrassing cos i was being my usual spastic self, making my exaggerated facial expressions&talking rather loudly&all. oh&my hair was spaz.
am i that recognisable? oh no, maybe i just suck at recognising people.

OK WHATEVER.
HAHAHA! I SAW MR. CONSTANTLY-KACAU-ME SCHAZWAN.
whom, by the way, is huge. he-you-ge. if i try to take a picture with him, i may not fit into the same frame if we both stand straight.

&he didn't even walk towards me or anything, so it was just a series of over-enthusiastic waves(on my part, of cos)&overly-wide, spastic smiles(again, on my part).

LOVE,

5:31 PM

stared at this screen for about 2minutes, trying to phrase what i want to say in such a way that it will not be too blatant, but will get the message across.

2minutes came&went, &my mind still draws a blank.

if my brain were a piece of paper, it'd have a hole in it now from my "write-erase-repeat" cycle. not helped by the accumulated agitation of each failed attempt.

i give up, &am going to sleep. it's past midnight&there's school tomorrow, i will have an interesting time trying to wake up.

pms is horrible, it gives me cramps&bad moods.

guess i'm wishing my life away
on these things i'll never say

LOVE,

12:05 AM

10 Things You Don't Really Need To Know About Me

i love my besties who keep me sane.

i think i'm crazy, confused, annoyed&mad.

i want to stab pillows&puncture pieces of paper.

i feel like i should stop thinking&just read.

i keep hoping the next message will be yours.

i should really stop typing.

i hope i'm pmsing&not genuinely feeling this way.

i believe my fingers are freezing.

i suggest that everyone run away from me- now!

i like Elliot Yamin's "Wait for You", which is playing now.

LOVE,

8:58 PM